Here is another poem from my journal that I wrote years ago:

I saw darkness spread beyond its gates
And flow into the world of light.
I saw pain descend from its perch
And cover the lands of peace.
I saw evil spread its wings
And stretch its shadow over us all.

I saw all this
And felt my heart break.

Pain, flowing from my chest.
Grasping, I try to hold it in.
Looking down, I see heart shards
Scattering to the wind –
In their place, a dark and empty void…
And all the thick blackness of the shadow
Comes rushing in.
I have fallen…
Fallen to the ground.

Darkness.
Fever.
Tossing, turning.
Sweat.
Restless nightmares.
Hunger.
Thirst.

From my wounds I bleed
No longer red, but black.
Through my veins flows like ink
The infectious night of my soul
Creeping in to every pore.

I drop my head back down –
Too weary to face it…
Breath deeply as I sense
Midnight sweep my mind.

I would love you if I could
I would hold you in my arms
I would heal you if I might
Do so without harm…
But I bleed black…
Smearing over all I touch
This tainted heart.

I am aware of nothing.